Dear humble bee.

Good morning my love!

I am so emotional today.sometimes i get like this.My heart aches and i cant stop thinking of you.Will this ever get easy? I know you know...You have all the answers..and your so far away.

I cant believe your gone.I cant believe im sitting here, in a empty house.I close my eyes right now and can see your beautiful face.You are so gorgeous Erawyn.

I miss you.I would love waking up before you, walking into your room and seeing you.You were so beautiful when you slept.You looked like an angel.My own angel.Thats exactly what you looked like the day you went to heaven.You were so calm.No pain my love.You were surrounded by love.You knew you were.You just laid so calm in my arms.You and God knew you were safe there.

How i wish you were here, making me laugh, making my day so happy.I loved being around you.you had this huge love bubble around you and i was the lucky one to be allowed in it.You loved me so much.I need that love ella.You are my soulmate.You were meant for me.No one understands the love i have for you.Noone knows how my heart felt everytime you smiled at me.

I want you to know that mommy is trying to be strong baby.My mommy is using what you taught her and im trying to be as strong as you.I am truly jealous of God right now.He gets to see you everyday.He gets to hug you and play with you.This makes me happy but sad at the same time.I know hes doing his best to take care of you.but know Ella, mommy is better lol....i know where your tickle spots are and exactly what to do when you need love.Yes, im sure he does too lol, but mommy knows better huh :)

Please tell God, that he only has you till i get there ok....He cant selfish once i get there.Its gonna take awhile, so hes good for now.lol.

I love you Erawyn Jizelle.

Love,

Your mommy <3